The name of this post was going to be called "Holy Crap"....I know that is a terrible title....but it was the name of the email that I sent to the Timeless Treasures crew late last night AND it really did sum up my day yesterday...
"day one" of a "Week in our Life"
Honesty is the best policy right? but once I finished typing this post, and "re-thought" my words...I knew it was not a good name....nor appropriate (but I just had to tell ya.!!!..)
so first things first...an huge apology to Colette & Jessica....who were sitting at Timeless Treasures waiting for ME to teach them how to doodle. While I was here at home, with rubber gloves on spraying Clorox cleaner with bleach...the two of them were nicely sitting there waiting for me...and I am again so so sorry.
okay...let's rewind a bit....to the rest of day one in the "Week in the Life" project.
In my journaling...I talked about the beginning of the day starting with LOTS of lightning, thunder & rain...only to end up with a rainbow...and I think that was GODS way of giving me a sneak preview of the day...only he forgot to tell me that it was in reverse order....
the one thing I think I figured out from yesterday is why my traveling anxiety is gone....because I needed all of my energy to deal with yesterday (key words...HOLY CRAP)
I made a book to house all of our going's on and I decided that each day needs at least two pages....yesterday could have filled up three..but I kept it at two (somethings...just need to be forgotten)
here is THE key photo from the latter "lightning & Thunder" part of the day ...
well, and of course...the laundry..throwing up produces many loads
now, I do not want to go into details about the rest of the day, I have to keep some things private...but I will talk a little about my latest studies in the series 40 Days of LOVE...and this week lesson "Loving with your Words" The only thing is, just like the lightning, thunder & rainbow coming in reverse order....
I got a lesson opposite of "Loving with your Words"
anyways, our lesson....was all about words...and how we should use them, how we "need" to use them and how we abuse them. How we need to think before we speak and what we need to "think" about as we speak....all in all...a really really really good reminder....and then there was yesterday..when I got the prime example of how words can, well....
without using names or any of the situation....My boys and I were "thrown" under the bus, my family was accused and I was basically told by someone that I was a bad mom. Now, the unfortunate, or heck, maybe fortunate part of this...was it was all done via email....so you can imagine my heart and how fast it was racing as I read it...stunned is a good word....amazed is a good word...shocked is a good word...and well, confused was the best word.
I will say that it took me a good few minutes to respond. Not feeling comfortable with the email, I followed with a phone call...got no answer, but left a concerning message, and then the replys came...followed by another..via email.
I will just say this...it ruined my day. plain and simple.
let me just stop here and say that as strong as my faith is...when things like this happen, when people use words, accusations and implications...and I can not resolve it or even begin to figure out the situation....I immediately start to implode..collapse..crumble inside..which really drives me nuts and crazy...
I need to take a lesson from whoever came up with "Sticks and Stones will break my bones...but words will never hurt me" unless it was Mother Goose, because if I need to take lessons from a goose....just shoot me.
anyways...I get really upset at myself for imploding...especially because I had to wait until the school day was over to figure out what the heck this situation was all about....and just like you, I have a life to lead...work to do...and little did I know...would have a throwing up teenager only hours away...so I had or better yet, have no time for things like this. I know they are going to happen and I just need to learn a better way to work with them.
Ya wanna know the best part...
after stewing, waiting, re-reading, trying to figure out, pacing, fretting. etc. etc. etc...once I was able to buck up, and head into this thing face to face...."talk" to the concerning parties involved....it seems that it was a "mis-understanding" and they had not gotten the whole story...prior to sending the email.
speechless. I let something affect me the way it did...and it was a "mis understanding". I will now recap the lesson from church just a bit...(as i clinch my teeth and squeeze out a smile)
here is a good one... "Watch your words and hold your tongue; You'll save yourself a lot of grief" Proverbs 21:23. See, I did watch my words (my reaction to the the situation) and I did hold my tongue (until I could get the facts) but it made me fall apart....thus again, I need to learn from it.
don't cha hate lessons sometimes???
Here are some key reminders for all of us...on Thinking before we speak...ask yourself these things BEFORE you speak....
T-are my words THOUGHTFUL
H-are my words HELPFUL
I-are my words INSPIRATIONAL
N-are my words NECESSARY
K-are my words KIND
I know that the above is alot to think about before we say something...but that is the point...it will help you re-think your words...
okay...enough for today...Happy last day of September and Happy One week from today I go to South Africa...YIKES!