this could be a possible commentary...sorry!
This past week at church, Pastor Rick spoke about how broken our nation is and how are states, communities, friendships, marriages, homes and our lives are in need of a big ol' healing and the message was full of ways we can heal them.
Do you know what the #1 problem with everything is?.....PRIDE..We all think we know better, know more.etc... and do you know what the first thing we need to do to recover from the mess that this world is in...CONFESS...and I don't mean going into a small room and telling someone you can not see, or telling only GOD...we need to tell others.
Pastor Rick says "Revealing your feelings is the beginning of Healing"
My trailer-park contribution is ..."Confess your Mess so you Live more and worry Less"
okay..I need to stop here and doodle his for you..hold on...okay, I am back. Here we go...
it is a really good something to not only read or think about, but actually do. He said something to that really stuck ...
"I need other people to help me change"
Have you ever though of it that way? I have not, in fact, I think I have always thought & done the opposite. For me, when times are tough, rough, hard or uneasy, I tend to shy away from people and just stay to myself..in my little home. I feel safe and protected. I am in my element, mostly doing laundry, creating and tending to my family, which is perfectly alright..but not always alright. We need others.
so today, I must confess a large loss that has rocked my world, and I am not saying that selfishly, in fact, I am happy for the....
GND..Girl Next Door.
my next door neighbor, you know, the one that I meet at the fence for sugar, eggs, easter baskets, tapes, etc., the one that I watched have a baby, the one who got me through the worst times in my life, nd the one who called in the middle of the night to watch one child, while the other was taken to emergency. the one that I ran a marathon with (alright, I am tearing up) you know..her...the ultimate back door guest (totally crying now, yesterdays mascara burning my eyes) the one I'd go to the spa with, and we wouldn't have to entertain each other, the one who made us laugh REALLY hard in Palm Springs..(I mean REALLY HARD!)..
she & her family....
yes, moved, now, I must say this, for a temporary time period, they only moved 1 street away, but it is a hole in my heart that I have never said out loud. The comfort of seeing their car, or hearing the boys, or just knowing that they are there, is gone. I suppose this is a part of growing up that I have never experienced.
am I being a total baby or what??? no, because they were, no, they ARE important to me..and my entire family.
I was a little bit of a "weepy, crying, could not hold it together" girl they actual day they moved, which was the day after the "fly" camping experience so...I did not help. I did not help them physically lift boxes, etc. although I did help, by entertaining their older son, as he was not having a real good day either. He just hung out with me. We decorated the house for Christmas, went to Target twice, Michaels, Wendy's.etc. We got each other through a difficult day with flying colors.
so..why do I confess this to the world? Well, I have to practice what I preach to you. I can not tell you to do something without doing something myself.
but do you want to know the best lesson I learned from this experience???
that she, the GND is no longer my "neighbor" but is 100% my friend. In a perfect world, both would be perfect, but as we grown, change & move on..."friend" is best. Now we meet at the mailbox instead of the back fence.
Cheers to us ( i have stopped crying now!) Houses made us neighbors, GOD made us friends!
in fact...cheers and thanks to all of my friends..that have invaded my life with goodness and wonderful times! I love you.
To the GND..who is now the GOTNS (Girl on the Next Street)...I love you, miss you dreadfully and wish you were still here but excited and happy for the journey you are headed for!
whew..feels better to say all of that.
and for you who are reading this, having "times" or difficulties, here is something WONDERFUL to watch...
I guess the moral of todays confession is two fold...In the current times, where we are struggling, searching and contemplating..whether good, not so good..or okay, not good at all..we must embrace the important people in our lives, not things, because the things will get us NO WHERE and the people...will get us through.
have a wonderful day....