wherever you are

Here I am again.  Yes, this is me, well, a sketch that I did of myself a few years back.  It is a really good representation of all moms (and some dads, too!) just "skating through life" but don't be fooled by this cute little drawing...

you see, I am soooo not always balanced like the sketch would indicate, in fact, I am more unbalanced than in balance, and I betcha you might be able to relate.

If you look closely (don't really) the Marathon Medal around my neck is tarnished because I have not made anytime to run lately, and for me, running is not only a physical thing, but more a mental and spiritual thing.

that chandelier hanging from my arm, it is in my bedroom and desperately needs to be dusted and one bulb needs to be replaced...

The yoga mat hanging on my back...ummm....yah, have not gone to yoga in quite a while...

my toes..need some polish

the Target & TJMaxx bags are empty, which is an okay thing, because I now use fabric bags that my mother-in-law made me...but, those are empty, too....

The lunch bags and diet coke with extra ice...well, I can not get my boys to eat lunch at school anymore...and then of course they come home and eat like elephants (which is like 89-90% of the day!) and the diet coke...well, everything happens for a reason...like recession and a new automated drinkmachine at McDonald's which only dispenses a certain amount of ice...so they have kinda lost my business but I have also cut WAY WAY WAY back on my spending and diet coke intake...so that is a GREAT THING....

and my hair...ugghhh...my hair. Funny how the world can be at odds, there is swine flu starting to seep into the country, there are wars, famines, unrest, poverty, lack of money for good hair product, recession and then you experience a "bad hair day" and nothing else seems to matter.  Why I choose this time in life to grow it out, is beyond me & not easy, but I am testing myself, i think, to choose to not care so much about my hair....I said "I think" and "I am trying"...

but you know what I do see everything time I look at this sketch....the cross around my neck. 

It shines, even though it is pencil on paper..I can see it & I can feel it shine. 

Here is the thing, at some point in pretty much every day of my life, something tends to be shaken and/or stirred but thankfully, I have GOD as my center to focus on..therefore, I am pretty much able "to skate through it" (like spending 3+ hoursin another urgent care yesterday)

So even though at this very minute I feel under the gun, over my head,  in too deep, upside down and a little bit out of control....I can still focus and that my friends(in my best John McCain Voice) is a very good thing! ( and I invite you to try it out!)

and take it from me, without GOD as my center, it would not be remotely possible.

Comments

[SusanC]

Your focus allows you to keep everything under control even when it seems out of control. God is good and he makes everything possible!

[Ambrosia Clark]

Everything you wrote is so true...I don't know how people with out GOD make it through life!

[Nancy in CA]

Hi Stephanie...what a great post to go along with your cute self-caricature. (I still think it should be a stamp...please, please). I'm so glad I follow your blog, as you help me stay grounded daily. Please keep sharing and I know I will keep following. Nancy

[melanie]

this was a wonderful post. it really hit home and i think i am going to write a similiar reflection!
thanks!

[Lara Cousins]

...you are forever my super star...!

[Leslie]

My one son suddenly hates the lunches I pack too (6th grade) and eats likes there's no tomorrow when he comes home from school too. Tks for the laugh and know that you're not alone!

Leslie

[Connie]

Step, I love reading your blog ! This post is great and makes me think i need to get back to church to get myself all centerd and focused ! Thanks for sharing.
Hugs Connie