Using my life, being honest and transparent and not "glittering & embellishing" my life is how I write, well type, on this blog, and although I would love to be able to tell you that all is ALWAYS happy, creative, clean, tidy, well and fine here at our little "home sweet home", just like your home sweet home, it has its bumps...its wonderful peaks...a few valleys with overgrown trails, walls that need to be painted, rainbows made with skittles (maybe not) BUT regardless of anything else, at the end of the day...
I know..
deep down...(sometimes deeper than others)
it will all be okay...
because God says so..
and because HE made me a mom of boys (which I realized this weekend, is what MOB stands for)
With honesty and transparency, I also have to respect the peeps and keep privacy a priority, but I will tell you that at a very late hour on Friday night, I sat on the edge of my bed, not even able to squeak out a tear, wondering what many moms wonder....."How in the world to divide myself into three"..for the peeps in the house (excluding the dang dog!), knowing what to do, where to go..when to say yes...how often to say no....enter your favorite "wonder" question here :______________________________
I share this because I KNOW...I am not alone with this.
I could not sleep, I could not laugh, I could not cry, I pretty much was like an owl, "owling" on the side of the bed..just sitting there...when Ben called my name...
"Mooooooooooooom ???????????"
Without all of the details..he could not sleep and he wanted me to lay with him. I told him that when I can not sleep, I pray (go figure, maybe the "owl" should have taken her own advice, duh!)....so I suggested that he lay there and talk to God...
That is when he asked me if I could "say our prayers out loud"
Prayers said....and 10 minutes later...sleep found...for the both of us.
The above doodle is on my "today list" because I have a lot of things to do...I am a nurse mom again.. In case you did not see my ER posts on FB yesterday, this MOB has a boy with a broken elbow..yep, another broken bone (MOESLB=mom of extreme sports loving boys) and I have made it clear that 2012 is our summer vacation year, so all broken bones need to be done and healed by July.
Oh...and in the midst of all of this life going on, I have been trying to stitch, paint, sew and figure out what the heck (would prefer to use the other "H" word) I should be doing next...praying for clarity...for a sign...for direction...for something for the love of Pete.....and I happily, right in the middle of REALLY TRYING TO FOCUS AND STAY ON TASK..was BLESSED with a "Whole New Doodle" for 2012.
Yep, a brand new doodle style for 2012...out with the old doodle...in with the new.
Prayers answered...just need to get everything else finished first.
BREATHE..FOCUS..PRAY...
Thank you God.
God bless you, my friend!
Posted by: SusanC | November 21, 2011 at 06:01 AM
So nice to know I am not in the world alone with most of the same feelings((: Although I am a MOG....I found out last week that our New Grandbaby will be a Girl....I come from a family of Girls, we have Girls and now a Baby Girl((: What a Blessing!! Blessings to You Sweet Cyber Friend.....I look forward to your posts, they lift me when I need them the most!! Happy Thanksgiving!
Posted by: Stefanie | November 21, 2011 at 06:20 AM
Happy Thanksgiving to you..keep the faitg MOG!
Posted by: stephanie | November 21, 2011 at 06:30 AM
Sorry to hear about the elbow break. Not fun. thanks for reminding us to just keep the faith. God will sustain us even in the hard times. Especially in the hard times.
Have a great Thanksgiving.
Posted by: Deb J | November 21, 2011 at 06:40 AM
Hi Stephanie, thank you for the beautiful word art you create...your art "Life is too short" meant so much to me today.
Lynette
South Africa
Posted by: Lynette | November 21, 2011 at 07:26 AM
Hang in there sweetie and remember it's okay to just say enough is enough. :) Turn it over to God and walk away. :)
Posted by: Cori | November 21, 2011 at 09:49 AM
Thanks for this today Stephanie, I really needed to see this today. Life is so hard for so many at times and we need to be reminded that we can trust and believe that God is there to help us when we need him. Carole x
Posted by: Carole Waechtler | November 21, 2011 at 10:20 AM
Great post Stephanie! I love how real you are and for the reminder on when life gets crazy - we need to turn it over to God and have faith that things will get better. I love your doodle of the crock pot. I want your recipie for tortilla soup. I took out some chicken breast... yummmm!
Posted by: Monica Robinson | November 22, 2011 at 11:19 AM