That is the only way I can describe the past few days.
I did not know what to blog, did not post to FB, did not want to read, did not know what to create...still had to do laundry (so I knew I was okay!) decided I looked like Dorothy Hamill with my hair cut and kept thinking of the "Gee your hair smells terrific" commercial...
and then, it dawned on me,
It is the last week before school starts and up until now, it has been smooth sailing...literally..and for the first time since my kids have been in school, I am not ready for them to go back and am not ready for summer to be over...
All summer long, I have been on task creatively, spiritually, physically, mentally..stayed semi-structured and going with the summer flow and now, with one week to go before it is back-to-school/work, I have become a whirling dervish full of unnecessary anxiety, not knowing what to do, when to do it, what to make, where to make it, etc...so much that in the past two days, I shut down and note to self, I do not work well being a whirling dervish and shut down.
What a selfish baby I am was.
Today, I woke up, prayed for direction, centered myself, kicked my own self in the butt and slapped myself across the face a few times (not really) but pretty much shook myself and yelled "get it together girl"
and now, I am better.
Here is my point...and although I am writing, well typing this from me, you might need this too....
PICK YOURSELF UP AND DO SOMETHING.
SHAKE IT OFF.
GET OVER IT AND GET TO WORK.
No matter what is going on, or off, how bad things seem, how confused you might feel, really....NO MATTER WHAT, as long as you stay spiritually centered, everything...and I really mean, everything..will be okay...just NEGU...
Thank you Lord.