I will be the first to admit that I spent too many years trying to figure out what " I wanted to be" and cared too much about "what others thought" instead of paying attention to what I already was. I thought that I knew best and well, I thought I had a plan and that my plan would just go as I had..."planned".
gulp.
for example, I did not go to college.
gulp.
I mean like a "Four Year-Know-What-You-Wanna-Be" college.
I was the "artistic" child, my sister was the "academic" one. (although she has artistic skills, too!) and that was often my excuse, well that and "I did not know what I wanted to do". I went to Beauty School..twice....(go ahead, sing it...I always do as I am cutting Valentine's hair.."Beauty School Dropppp outttt") I took LOTS of college classes, mainly art classes, including "Life Drawing" where "larger" men & women models stood on a platform with lights shining down on them while to posed BUCK (or is it butt) Naked....and just so you know, I NEVER drew "it". I always put a triangle where "it" went...
anyways, again...
I "thought" too much about what I thought was right along with what others thought and felt and instead of just paying attention to the facts.
whoops.
Many of us spend way to much time trying to be something else, something that we aren't, something that we will never be or something that we were not meant to be..instead of just being ourselves...
BUT
at the same time that I admit these things to you, I also recognize that had I NOT done the things I had done, OR had done the things I didn't do..I would not be where I was right now!
whew!
A few years ago I spent a little time thinking about it and shared it right here on the ol' blog:
My plan as a little girl was to be a wife, become a mother,
create a home and live a good & faithful life filled with family & friends.
My dream as a young girl was to marry the first boy I fell in Love with.
My goals as a young women changed as life did.
I have learned along the way that people take different roads,
make their own choices & base decisions on their own understanding.
It has taken me 38 years of life filled with situations, disappointments, wonderful memories,
poor choices, awesome experiences and a renewed focus on God to understand and accept
that the plans we had made when we were young are ultimately not in our control.
My wishes now lie in my heart, in my mind and with the plan that God has for me.
I know to accept the “thrills of victory and the “agonies of defeats” that happen with life.
Had the things that happened in my life up till now not occurred, I would not be where I am
at this very moment.
I cherish my children, love making my house a home that is inviting and comfortable,
I do not take for granted, but cherish the family & friends that bless my life,
& I continually thank GOD for his faith and undying LOVE.
( and twenty-three years later…. . I married that first boy I fell in love with.)
So today, take a little time to think about YOU (oh, and Download Always do your best and color it, that is, if you want to!)
Have A GREAT day!