WARNING: yikes.
I have to throw myself under a bus once again and mostly because as I type this, I have a million ridiculous emotions going on in my head (and my stomach).
The situation that I am going to write about just happened and I am not sharing this to get sympathy and/or comments. I am sharing this because I forgot to remember something in a brief moment of conflict and something tells me that someone might need this reminder besides me.
yikes.
This is me about an hour ago:
I am a dork, I KNOW!
If you are a local, then yep, you may have seen the school I do morning traffic at on the news.
uggh.
Regardless of anything else, my only job is to get children into school safely. The way people behave, act and drive in the morning makes my job sometimes a little difficult and today was one of those days. I am not going into details but a parent took their frustrations (about obviously many other situations) out on me and then wanted to go on camera, not about the situation at our school, but about me. Then "dismissed" me to "the pole that I stand by to go do whatever it is I do." (I had to push my momma horns back down at that point.)
Here is the problem:
Did I let her affect my job?
nope.
Did I let her affect me?
yep.
Did I want to spit on her perfectly styled hair and makeup?
just kidding, kinda.
She shook me to the core and while I wanted to put her in place on my complete dedication to a school that I have been a part of for 15 years, I buckled. I let her words break me down instead of considering the situation. I forgot to remember the phrase "Everyone you meet is fighting a battle you know nothing about. Be kind."
Today I had to remind myself of that phrase, just way after the fact.
I have to practice what I always tell you "I am here to remind you of things things you already know, just forgot to remember"
and yes, I kinda wanted to spit on her but that would not be ladylike or kind and really, my parents raised me better.
letting it go now.