Dear You,
I am feeling very stretched and uncomfortable and have been for awhile. While I am the first one to remind others that when you feel that way it is a sign that you are right where you are supposed to be BUT it is easier said than done.
NOTE TO SELF - "Walk the walk, talk the talk" and "Keep the Faith"
In the name of transparency and authenticity, I am throwing myself under the bus AGAIN. It seems I have been doing lots of bus throwing lately but that is because I am human, I make mistakes and I fail at things. It is very hard to arm wrestle with the devil because "it, he, the enemy" is strong. I can't do it on my own and this I know but it is hard to remember the things I already know and I have to remind myself and reach out for prayers.
I have dropped a few balls in the last month and no matter how many times I apologize, I get a little static. It is my fault for spreading myself too thin BUT, and I say this with complete confidence, I am NOT a bad person nor a bad Christian.
Lesson learned.
I know that no matter how many times I apologize, sometimes, for some, it will never be enough. All I can do is apologize and ask for forgiveness. Sometimes that is all we can do, well, that and learn from our mistakes. I don't want to say "moving on" as if I have dismissed issues and will go skipping along on my way, but I also cant dwell on things and let the opinions of others tear me down.
Again, lessons learned.
I am growing and learning in all aspects of my personal and creative life and I look forward to an amazing 2015 along with hiccups, fails, creative milestones & celebrations. I look forward to doing all of these things with YOU and appreciate YOU. NEVER think that I have forgotten you or have taken advantage of you. That is or will NEVER be the case.
With Love,
Stephanie
