Three years ago I started to share my story in a series of posts named "The Story Of Me" and then I got in my own way and believed my thoughts of "who cares" and "nobody reads blog anymore" and I stopped sharing.
Here's the thing, God cares.
As much as it is "The Story of Me" it's not just about me.
It's more about HE and what HE is doing in and through me, how I am growing and what I am learning. We learn, grow and experience things not just for us but to share with others without having to know who it may affect. Our job is to just share. He will do the footwork of getting it to who needs it.
So with that, I continue on with "The Story Of Me"
I left off in part five talking about the creative part of my life and how the ebbs and flows of the industry were a creative curve ball for me and while I was successful at the things I was designing, creating and making, the marketing hustle part of the business was extremely difficult for me. I did it, but it was not natural. I was uncomfortable, out of my comfort zone and really struggled through several years of it. It may not have appeared that way on the outside but it was taking a bit of a toll on the inside.
I really did try to overcome, practice, learn and make it happen, but again, the lights, the videos, the take one, take two and take three's and the "buy my stuff" made me overwhelmingly stressed and anxious. I guess this is where the saying "If you can't take the heat, get out of the kitchen" comes in.
I chose to get "out of the kitchen." I did not feel I had given up, that I was too weak or that I had failed. I exhausted every effort to grow into what the industry and my jobs demanded but when "you know, you just know" and it took me right back to 20 years prior when I had taken that giant leap of faith (see "The Story of Me - Between 1 & 2) and made a decision to change. The really hard thing is and was that I did not know "what" that change was.
Here is what I want you to hear:
Just because my business was shifting did not mean my purpose had changed or that I had lost the talents and skills God had given me. On the contrary, I believe that making the hard decisions was strengthening and defining my purpose. I am grateful for the opportunities I was given by some great people and companies but knew that as much as I was changing, so was the industry. Once again, the steps I had taken were leading me to new places...I just couldn't get a clear visual on it yet.
To be continued....
The Story Of Me - Part One
The Story Of Me - Between 1 & 2
The Story Of Me - Part Two
The Story Of Me - Part Three
The Story Of Me - Part Four
The Story Of Me - Part Five